Today I was reminded how precious life really is and how I can’t for a second take life for granted.
I’ve been striving to be present where I am. Knowing life is such a gift and I am so blessed to be able to experience it, I desire to make each moment count.
Having no regret is something I long to have and with that comes intentionality.
The other day I was able to travel with my husband for his job and spend time with just the two of us. I was welcoming some one on one time with him after a crazy busy week with the family. After a three hour drive to our destination, we were able to enjoy talking with each other without the sweet sound of our baby babbling and needing us.
We started talking about where we are in life and all that we’ve been through up until this point. I couldn’t help but feel overwhelmed with awe and gratitude. After being together for 7 years, we have experienced a lot of life together. I found myself saying to him, “I love our life together” only for John 12:25 to suddenly pop into my head.
How is it possible for me to hate the life I have been given? I have an amazing family, a roof over my head, food in the house, and clothes on my back. To me this was extremely hard to process. I didn’t even know what that looked like. But then I went back to my previous post where I talked about the idea of losing everything that meant something to me and being left with nothing. If that were to happen, how would you feel? I had to process this scripture for some time and really talk to God about what he meant.
I realized that if I love my life over my God, my priorities will never fall into place.
I realized if I love my life over my God, I will not only be making selfish decisions, but my heart will not be in the right place.
I realized that I have to be okay with losing my life, because it will happen. At some point, my life on earth will no longer exist. (Morbid, I know) But when that day comes, then what?
I know some days (especially in this season) life can feel very long and exhausting. When I’m taking care of my baby who isn’t feeling well, or my husband is working a 14 hour shift, the day can feel like it is never going to end. But life here on earth is so minuscule compared to eternal life. When I think about being intentional and present, I have to remember perspective. I have to remember that everything I have on this earth will be gone. It’s inevitable. But the Lord gave me the life that I’m living. The Lord entrusted me with such a sweet child, a wonderful husband, an amazing family, and a job that provides. So why should I hate my life?
It’s about perspective. When my husband and I were driving the other week, I really struggled to be able to say to him that I hated my life. However, understanding that God is a jealous God and wants me to love him above all us, I can say that I am extremely thankful for the life he has entrusted me with. From my understanding, hating my life means being okay with knowing my life is not mine. My life belongs to Christ because he is ultimately the one who gave it to me.
So I am taking on the challenge of making today count. I am going to change my perspective of looking at my life as if it’s mine, to being thankful the Lord entrusted me with everything I have.
When I’m feeling overwhelmed with love and joy, I’m going to remind myself that everything is from the Lord.
When I’m feeling exhausted and out of fuel, I’m going to remember that the Lord is the my strength.
When I’m confused and lonely, I’m going to remember the LORD is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.
Today, I’m going to make it count. Will you take the challenge with me?