I remember this day 17 years ago. I was sitting in my fifth grade classroom, and the loudspeaker continued turning on, asking certain students to report to the office to go home. I had no idea what was going on. Everything was unknown. When I got home that night, my parents sat me and my brothers down to talk about what was going on. My twelve year old self was trying to make sense of something way bigger than anything I could comprehend. Later that night, my parents took us to church so they could pray about what was going on in our country. Looking back, what an example that was in surrendering what was out of our control to the Lord.
I think about this situation and how there are so many circumstances in our life that are out of our control. Whether that is dealing with loss, love, a new job, pregnancy, children, or family situations, we are ultimately not in control.
THANK YOU JESUS!
Before I accepted Christ, I felt I had to be in control. I was not going to let anyone tell me how to live my life. I thought I knew exactly what I wanted and needed.
HA! Jokes on me.
That attitude and mindset, got me a whole lot of no where. It wasn’t until I was at a loss and realize I actually had no idea what was best for me and needed to accept that Jesus literally came to save me and offer me LIFE.
To be honest, I would’ve never pictured my life to be where I am today. I never imagined being married to my husband, never thought I’d live where we are living, never thought I would live 15 minutes from my parents, and never thought I would be starting my own business. But man am I thankful for exactly the place I’m at. I prayed for my husband before I knew him. I’ve always desired relationships and have such a great community, and the sacrifice that was made in order for me to start my own business has been well worth it.
I never thought I would be where I am today, but Jesus has a plan for my life! He always has. I just needed to rest in the fact that he is in control.
This is something I’ve had to tell myself over and over and over again. Every new situation that I have come across in my life, I have to remind myself of the many situations where trusting only myself got me know where, but seeking wisdom in Christ gave me freedom and life.
There is so much that is accessible to us, but that doesn’t mean it’s all good for us.
I still have the desire to want to be in control. I’m human. I’m a sinner. But what is a life without boundaries? If I do not have boundaries, I cannot function. Freedom comes within boundaries. My boundaries are found within Christ.
Lately, I’ve had to give myself boundaries of working on my business solely while Luke is sleeping or napping. I’ve got to a point of investing too much of myself into my business and getting too much of my self-worth from it. Since giving myself boundaries, I have felt so much more freedom because I know there’s a time for everything. If I don’t get pictures edited by the time he wakes up from his nap, I know there will be time when he goes to bed that night. If I don’t respond to someone right away, it does not mean I have lost a client.
Let’s face it, there’s always going to be more to do; more laundry, more cleaning, more healthy. But there’s only so much time in a day. I’m only one person.
I’m working on resting in the fact that I am not in control and understanding when boundaries are necessary. For me, boundaries are needed whenever something is taking place of Christ in my life. That is where freedom is had!
So here’s my question for you. What are some boundaries you have had to create for yourself?